Stalkers suck. Well this guy isn't truly stalking me since he, thank the fucking lord, doesn't know where I live or work.
Let's call him FCB (fucking crazy bastard). So meet him online a few months ago. We hit it off. Great guy. Sends me pics and he's hot - bonus. We talk, he gets psycho and possessive. I say "get lost". He apolgized and sucked me back in. This happens a few times. Eventually we meet. Well guess what?!?! The pics he sent were NOT him!
Now I ummm kinda still fucked him. What can I say, I was horny! But HUGE mistake! I dump him afterwards and he cries. And cries. And cries
I know I'm a good catch, but come on! I block him from MSN. And I thought that was it.
About a month ago, I'm chatting with a new guy online. Seems nice enough. I asked for a pic, told him I was burned once. Well he says he will send one. But never does. We talk still for a bit. One day he tells me of his fantasy that he insists I am the person to help him out. His fantasy is to meet in a hotel room, blind folded. And the more I talk to this guy I realize he sounds like FCB. So I say "hell no!". That was just way too creepy to even fathom since I know it would be FCB!
Creepy
Now there are a few people I'd choose to stalk me
You know who you are ;)
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
All I Can Say...
It truly sucks when you meet an incredible person who lives so far away.
Oh and I'll be keeping the morose tweets to a minimum ;).
Oh and I'll be keeping the morose tweets to a minimum ;).
My New Favourite Quote
Post by the @quotewhore:
If shes amazing, she wont be easy.
If shes easy, she wont be amazing.
If shes worth it, you wont give up.
If you give up, you're not worthy.
Love it!! Remember that one boys and girls! It's the truth!
I, for one, am worth it. If I do say so myself ;)
If shes amazing, she wont be easy.
If shes easy, she wont be amazing.
If shes worth it, you wont give up.
If you give up, you're not worthy.
Love it!! Remember that one boys and girls! It's the truth!
I, for one, am worth it. If I do say so myself ;)
What To Do...
So I just get this email from A, the wrong email guy:
"Hey missed hearing from ya today. Hope ya still wanna get in my pants. ".
Turns out he lives like an hour or so away from me. Small world.
And this guy I slept with a year ago, sends me this today:
"just thought I would let you know you have an incredible body - have a nice day. Oh and one day I hope to ravage you again".
Nice for an attention whore like me...
"Hey missed hearing from ya today. Hope ya still wanna get in my pants. ".
Turns out he lives like an hour or so away from me. Small world.
And this guy I slept with a year ago, sends me this today:
"just thought I would let you know you have an incredible body - have a nice day. Oh and one day I hope to ravage you again".
Nice for an attention whore like me...
Still Embarrassed...
Funny story. So met this guy. I'll call him J. We chatted for a bit. He asked me to send him pics. So I did... And in these pictures I was ..ahem... not fully clothed. You twitter people have seen these pics btw ;).
So J tells me he didn't get the pics. Hmmm... so I check and realize I sent the pic to the wrong email address. I fixed it and re-sent the pics to J. He was quite pleased by them.
A day later, I get the following emails from the person at the wrong address:
number 1:
"I'd appreciate if you didn't send this smut to me. You're unattractive and I have a wife. I've forwarded these to everyone my list just incase everyone we know wants to know what you're up to."
So I respond, totally embarrassed (and insulted! LOL!), apologizing profusely.
He responds by:
"Sorry if I came off rude. Just can't get those pictures at this email. Now xxxx@aol.com is another story. Lol. i did not forward them for your privacy".
Sure enough, I get email from his "other" account and he hasn't stopped emailing me since, telling me how hot I am, wanting more pics, etc etc.
At least he (we will call him A), boosted my ego ;). Yes, I'm at attention whore. :)
So J tells me he didn't get the pics. Hmmm... so I check and realize I sent the pic to the wrong email address. I fixed it and re-sent the pics to J. He was quite pleased by them.
A day later, I get the following emails from the person at the wrong address:
number 1:
"I'd appreciate if you didn't send this smut to me. You're unattractive and I have a wife. I've forwarded these to everyone my list just incase everyone we know wants to know what you're up to."
So I respond, totally embarrassed (and insulted! LOL!), apologizing profusely.
He responds by:
"Sorry if I came off rude. Just can't get those pictures at this email. Now xxxx@aol.com is another story. Lol. i did not forward them for your privacy".
Sure enough, I get email from his "other" account and he hasn't stopped emailing me since, telling me how hot I am, wanting more pics, etc etc.
At least he (we will call him A), boosted my ego ;). Yes, I'm at attention whore. :)
To Cheat or Not To Cheat...
In my previous post, I touched on this topic, how I never believed I could cheat.
I truly believe that people cannot judge cheaters until they've been in the situation. I don't think I'm a bad person at all for doing what I've done.
I've tried so hard to work on my marriage, to find that spark again. To find the excitement. My husband loves to have sex with me, but the last thing on his mind is pleasing me. He cums in about 30 seconds and we're done. No foreplay.
And to talk to him about this? I can't. He's suspected me of cheating in the past. I feel that if I tell him what I want, what I need in the bedroom, he is going to wonder where these thoughts came from and it will be cemented in his mind that I did cheat.
I truly don't want to hurt him. I can't hurt him. It would devestate him. And me, for hurting him.
And I've thought about leaving. I have. We've discussed it and he has practically begged me to stay. And we have a special needs child, so the thought of breaking up our family for him, just kills me. And as I told my "platonic separated by the Atlantic friend" today, this is also selfish of me. Because raising him alone 50% of the time would be so hard and I can't imagine doing it on my own. So yes, I feel very selfish.
If I could just live my life this way, as I am, without him finding out, life would be good :).
A friend's husband cheated on her. She threw him out immediately. Which was ironic, since she was in love with a married man and would have given anything for him to pay attention to her. Eventually he did, they had a passionate affair. Her separated and her lover, married. She then realized that there are reasons why people cheat. She has now forgiven her husband and they are working on getting back together. Which is wonderful.
BUT I don't believe either one will stay monogamous. Once you've cheated once, I think it's much easier to cheat again, especially once they fall back in their own ways. I do hope with all my heart they are happy.
Ok - I apologize - this post was just a bunch of babbling. No real order to it and no real point.
I truly believe that people cannot judge cheaters until they've been in the situation. I don't think I'm a bad person at all for doing what I've done.
I've tried so hard to work on my marriage, to find that spark again. To find the excitement. My husband loves to have sex with me, but the last thing on his mind is pleasing me. He cums in about 30 seconds and we're done. No foreplay.
And to talk to him about this? I can't. He's suspected me of cheating in the past. I feel that if I tell him what I want, what I need in the bedroom, he is going to wonder where these thoughts came from and it will be cemented in his mind that I did cheat.
I truly don't want to hurt him. I can't hurt him. It would devestate him. And me, for hurting him.
And I've thought about leaving. I have. We've discussed it and he has practically begged me to stay. And we have a special needs child, so the thought of breaking up our family for him, just kills me. And as I told my "platonic separated by the Atlantic friend" today, this is also selfish of me. Because raising him alone 50% of the time would be so hard and I can't imagine doing it on my own. So yes, I feel very selfish.
If I could just live my life this way, as I am, without him finding out, life would be good :).
A friend's husband cheated on her. She threw him out immediately. Which was ironic, since she was in love with a married man and would have given anything for him to pay attention to her. Eventually he did, they had a passionate affair. Her separated and her lover, married. She then realized that there are reasons why people cheat. She has now forgiven her husband and they are working on getting back together. Which is wonderful.
BUT I don't believe either one will stay monogamous. Once you've cheated once, I think it's much easier to cheat again, especially once they fall back in their own ways. I do hope with all my heart they are happy.
Ok - I apologize - this post was just a bunch of babbling. No real order to it and no real point.
The constant pressure to blog...
Ok - I'm back. A special friend has encouraged me to keep it up. And probably won't lay off if I don't, so I'm back. Although his harassment is fun...
So I've been thinking back to where this Secret journey of mine began. I used to be a sweet, normal, innocent, monogamous girl. Now I'm just sweet and normal. I'm not innocent, nor am I monogamous. How my life has changed in three years.
Three years ago I never would have thought I would have cheated on my husband. Ever. I thought cheaters were horrible people. I truly did.
Until the day my hot co-worker moved cubicles and sat across from me. I always found him attractive and was thrilled he was moving to sit near me. I of course assumed there would be a lot of chatting and harmless flirting, but that was it, as he is also married with kids.
It wasn't. The feelings between us started immediately. We started hanging out immediately. Coffee, lunches, after work, working late together, coming in Saturdays (something I ALWAYS said I would NEVER do!). We were inseparable. We fell in love. We imagined our lives together. Things were wonderful. He was wonderful. We talked constantly when we weren't together. He made me feel so good, so wanted, so attractive. And the sex was fucking fantastic. To me, sex without emotion is just that - sex. Sex with emotion? WOW...
His penis was small. And no, that's not bitterness.. it's the truth. LOL! Poor guy. But he knew how to use his tongue. VERY well.
And of course it ended. It had to. We both knew it would. The guilt set in, on both of our parts. It seemed it was over as soon as it started.
And fucking someone in the workplace is NEVER a good idea. The awkwardness for probably a year and a 1/2 afterwards was not fun. Us trying it again over and over and it not working. But I've been free of him for probably a year now. And it feels fantastic.
It feels like it was all a dream.
Now in saying all that, the reason I am here, why I have continued on the anti-monogamous path is because of him. I've been looking to get that feeling back that he gave me. The feeling I don't get at home.
Have I got it back? I don't know. But I have had some fucking fantastic sex in the meantime!
So I've been thinking back to where this Secret journey of mine began. I used to be a sweet, normal, innocent, monogamous girl. Now I'm just sweet and normal. I'm not innocent, nor am I monogamous. How my life has changed in three years.
Three years ago I never would have thought I would have cheated on my husband. Ever. I thought cheaters were horrible people. I truly did.
Until the day my hot co-worker moved cubicles and sat across from me. I always found him attractive and was thrilled he was moving to sit near me. I of course assumed there would be a lot of chatting and harmless flirting, but that was it, as he is also married with kids.
It wasn't. The feelings between us started immediately. We started hanging out immediately. Coffee, lunches, after work, working late together, coming in Saturdays (something I ALWAYS said I would NEVER do!). We were inseparable. We fell in love. We imagined our lives together. Things were wonderful. He was wonderful. We talked constantly when we weren't together. He made me feel so good, so wanted, so attractive. And the sex was fucking fantastic. To me, sex without emotion is just that - sex. Sex with emotion? WOW...
His penis was small. And no, that's not bitterness.. it's the truth. LOL! Poor guy. But he knew how to use his tongue. VERY well.
And of course it ended. It had to. We both knew it would. The guilt set in, on both of our parts. It seemed it was over as soon as it started.
And fucking someone in the workplace is NEVER a good idea. The awkwardness for probably a year and a 1/2 afterwards was not fun. Us trying it again over and over and it not working. But I've been free of him for probably a year now. And it feels fantastic.
It feels like it was all a dream.
Now in saying all that, the reason I am here, why I have continued on the anti-monogamous path is because of him. I've been looking to get that feeling back that he gave me. The feeling I don't get at home.
Have I got it back? I don't know. But I have had some fucking fantastic sex in the meantime!
Monday, November 22, 2010
My First Post
Hmmm. So now I'm here. I've always wanted to do this. Blog that is. Actually, what am I saying, I have done it, on another blog. Three posts total. Then I got bored. And no one read it. But thanks to my Twitter friends, I should have people reading this. So that means I will have to keep up with it. And attempt to make it somewhat interesting.
I'm not sure what the point of my blog is yet. That I will have to ponder.
But thanks to @theofficewhore, here I am. And much encouragement from another very special person :).
I really should do some work though. I'm not sure my employer would appreciate me getting paid for blogging on company time. Although it will happen often. Because I'm a slacker.
So hi everyone and welcome to my ride ;P
I'm not sure what the point of my blog is yet. That I will have to ponder.
But thanks to @theofficewhore, here I am. And much encouragement from another very special person :).
I really should do some work though. I'm not sure my employer would appreciate me getting paid for blogging on company time. Although it will happen often. Because I'm a slacker.
So hi everyone and welcome to my ride ;P
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